The Twin Flame Merger
Are you a twin flame or wonder if you are a twin flame and have wondered what it feels like to experience the twin flame merger? I'm going to try to explain it from my experience. I say my experience, because I have no idea if everyone experiences it the same, because there are different types of twin flames. I'm a Starseed Monadic twin flame, and if you follow Irina Nola's work on Quora, you will discover that there are many more types of twin flames than we originally knew of, but the label is really just differentiating between what type of soul you are. A twin flame is a twin flame after all. I had a regression session with Irina recently and it gave me further confirmation of what I had already experienced and gave me more detail and understanding. Today, through a deep sleep state I was given more information, and that information is relevant to the twin flame merge experience. Irina asked me why I was having a session with her, when I already go out there, am already a visionary psychic and already know I'm a twin flame. That's a good and valid question, and lots of people ask me why I see psychics and such when I can do it myself. Well, here's the thing, doing it for myself is not always as effective, because I can get distracted, or go into the zone too deeply and it is just very beneficial to allow someone else to guide me along the journey. Apart from that Irina has perfected a system that she has developed specifically for a certain aim relating to twin flames, and I wanted to get some answers and so the process was very beneficial for me. The answers didn't all come at the time of the experience, they kept coming later for me as I had a deeper understanding of what I was seeing. I'm going to write about my findings at another time, but today I just want to touch on the soul merge experience.
Starseed Monadic Twin Flame
Back in the late 90's to early 2000's I used to go into these deep sleep trance states spontaneously all the time. I didn't know what they were, and my mother said I had always done it since I was young. She used to say, "you could sleep on a barbed wire fence". I do talk about this deep sleep state some more in my book "Birthing a New Reality", but what I didn't know back then, that I have had better understanding on today after I went into a deep sleep state and was shown and given answers as I came out of it, 😞 is as follows. I want to explain a little how this deep sleep state came about today.
I am a Starseed Monadic Twin Flame, that was confirmed during my session with Irina. A Starseed Monadic twin flame just means you have had most of your lives on other planets or as an energy-based being and not so many earthly lives and you have incarnated with a particular mission.
Back in the year 2000 I was teaching a 2-year diploma on Colour Therapy and how to rise in consciousness through the use of colour frequencies. I had my own school of colour and I taught this diploma for 4 years before I began to birth a new frequency, that I eventually named LUXOR Light. Back in those days I was always going into these deep sleep states and all I knew was that each time I went into one, I was experiencing a shift in consciousness. I want to cut a long story short because I've already told that story in my book Birthing a New Reality, a Search for the Beloved.
Twin Flame Full Union
This year is my year of destiny, and I am determined to get it right. My twin flame and I are already fully in union on all levels, although it's not what people may envision Union to be. Starseed Monadic Twin Flames are here for a purpose with a mission and so relationship is not the aim here, although it's hard not to want one and while we do have one, it is not traditional by any means, and in fact we don't see much of each other, we don't live together, we don't do what relationships do, we simply love each other and that is what it is all about. We both have our own personal purpose, and we have both been journeying this twin flame dance since 2016, (although it really started in 2011) trying to make it fit in a box and it does not, and in fact we find it hard to have a relationship because we have never had a relationship with each other in our earthly past lives. In fact, we have only warred with each other in our Earthly past lives. We are here as part of the mission to heal polarity, so remembrance of knowing how to fight is easy, but knowing how to be in relationship and harmony is not so easy. However, we are both in surrender and our separation phases are not really much of separation rather than just taking some distance. We are in contact with each other daily because we have a united spiritual mission as well as our own personal spiritual missions and we have learned (not without a struggle) how to put our personal humanness aside for the sake of fulfilling what we came here to do.
Twin Flame Separation
So, recently we decided to distance, or try to separate. We've tried to separate a few times over the years, but to no real avail. Each time we try, I put my right hip out and cannot walk for at least a week before I realise that my body is trying to tell me that once you have physical union, you should not try to rip it apart again. Once I realise that, healing happens fast. So, we now just take distance from each other and keep things mission related only until we are thrown back together by the Universal forces. Today was one of those days. We have taken distance for the last two months, then I woke this morning exceptionally happy and picked up my phone and saw a good morning message from my twin. Within an hour I received a phone call saying he was at my gate. He said he went for a drive in the car, and he just ended up at my place. Nothing extraordinary took place, we just went out for brunch agreed that we are both sometimes stupid and stubborn, talked about making changes within our healing business and centre, and when I came home, I began to get very tired. I went to lay down and then I was dragged in, deep into the deep sleep state. Six hours later I came to awareness, but my body was still not moving, still feeling as if I
was immersed in a strong effervescent energy, and I lay there, hardly breathing, awareness and yet not yet of this world. I lay in this state for another hour or so, experiencing the state and receiving messages and visions. I saw another world like a paradisical garden filled with trippy visions; the head of Horus, the ancient Egyptian Sky god with the head of a Falcon, the chest of a Pharaoh with his arms crossed, the crook and flail, a brilliant pinkish golden light beaming through pyramids, all visions of power and mastery. The messages started to come, and I was shown through a knowingness that when in the deep sleep state, I am travelling to outer realms and merging with the energies of my twin flame. And then I knew that all these years, nearly 30 and even into my childhood when I experienced an NDE at the age of 11, each time I had been entering these deep sleep states that my family just took as normal for me, was me merging with the energies of my twin flame. I would always shift into an awake state, full of clarity and awareness after I have been in these states although in my youth, I did not understand it, I just knew that I loved to go there into this experience of what I can only call Home.
During my session with Irina, I saw that I did not have many human lives, but of all the lives I did see other than the human lives, I, the feminine expression was merging in and out with my masculine expression. I saw a very early life on Earth, but I was not human. I had very white translucent feet. I saw the feminine feet first, and they quickly morphed into with the masculine aspect of myself, and I saw that this incarnation on earth was as a fully merged aspect expressing as masculine who shapeshifted into human forms of differing shamans.
I saw another life as a lion, possibly not of this world also. The feminine, or the lioness merged out of the masculine body. So, in that I life or reality, I must have chosen to express as both masculine and feminine. On my home planet everyone was a translucent being like me. In this life I was carrying a baby on my a baby hip. The baby was the same translucent blue, white skin as me.
In this life, I saw my masculine take his skin off as he shapeshifted into a shaman dragon-like being as he pranced around as if to say, "sometimes I can be a dragon". It was an amusing vision because the personality of the dragon was so much like the personality of my twin flame in this reality. At first, I stood staring at him, wondering why he had chosen the expression of the dragon. This is also something I have often asked in this life. "Why did he choose to come like this?" I was not afraid of this dragon, I was simply puzzled, just like I am in this life often feeling puzzled at why we chose to come with such polarized states of being. This is the journey of opposites.
The Cosmic Egg
My twin flame or the expression of my twin flame as the dragon then took me back to the cosmic egg (monad) where we came from. As we entered the egg he shrank back into the amniotic fluid where he healed and then we hatched out of the egg and he became the same energy as me again, living and working on some kind of galactic ship together, the three of us; he, myself and the baby. I was more translucent white with very light blue hues, and he was taller and bluer than I, it seemed to be the difference between the masculine and feminine expressions of these beings. We were translucent Blue-white beings not of this world.
Soul Merge
When asked to go to my first ever life on earth and expecting to see a human life, I only saw a blue energy come rushing in and then a white energy come from the other direction and fully merge with the blue. It was this vision that gave me the understanding of the merger between twin flames, or at least the type of twin flame that I am. Most of my lives were not of this world, but as a star being or an energy. This made sense because in 2004 I birthed an energy that enables shifts in consciousness to those who are immersed in this energy and who resonate and fully align with energy themselves. It helps them to fully merge with their own masculine feminine energies and often draws to them their twin flame and enables the merge between souls.
Inside the Monad
I can never forget these visions because they are me, I am them. I was then taken back to the monad where I saw side by side a long line of doubles. Masculine and feminine all lined up inside the Cosmic Egg / Monad. All feminine souls looked the same and all masculine souls looked the same.
The Monad is a family of consciousness that contains extensions that exist simultaneously on other dimensional timelines. I had to research that to fully understand what I was seeing. I was seeing the extensions of my own Monad. I felt I was at the front of the feminine line, and all of the feminine's looked exactly the same. On the masculine side, my twin was at the head of the line, and all masculine's looked exactly the same. My understanding is that these are all expressions of the same soul, possibly that leave to experience in different realities. I say this because I saw something of that nature when I was in another experience that I mention below, and I'll talk about that at another time. But then there is another theory. Each Monad has 12 souls attached to it and each soul group has 12 soul extensions or personalities. That's us, living down here on planet earth. So, in my visions where my twin and myself and the baby all went back to the Cosmic Egg, it could be that we had already achieved the manifestation of the third energy (baby), which makes sense because I have already birthed a third energy with LUXOR Light. So, after we went back to the cosmic egg and were born again into the "ship", which could be the greater Monad itself that contains 12 souls and each soul having a masculine and feminine aspect and each of those unified souls only leave the monad when they have a mission. I saw these lines of twins or doubles, ready to leave the ship/monad and in my previous session with Tony Ratnam below, I saw what they did when they left and that I will write about at another time. I think the journey of the twin flames is a very complicated one and there can be no one explanation for the experiences individuals have. I've seen my experience, therefore, all I have to do it understand it. The problem is, when the mind gets involved, we can get it wrong, we need to go with what feels right. I will be going on an extensive experiential journey of discovery with this as time allows.
The soul is a projection of the Monad as we step down to experiencing self-awareness, manifestation, and so forth. The Monad is the spark of God that exists within all of us. The personality is the expression of the Soul incarnate. So, it is a threefold step down. Monadic expression, to soul expression, to personality expression.
While I was in Australia, I had experienced a similar regression session with my friend Tony Ratnam, based in Perth, Western Australia. In that session, I experienced more of the same only the session with Tony preceded my session with Irina, so I was adding to my experience when I had the session with Irina. With the two sessions, I am able to have a greater understanding as to the origins of the twin flame and how they come into being. I will be writing more about my first experience with Tony and then the follow up with Irina. This is such a vast topic that can open immense discussion and I don't feel that we can ever have all the answers, we can only learn to understand our own experience. For me it's important to understand the experiences I have because from that I'm able to help others along their journey.
Journeying to Universal Consciousness
I am visionary, a light codes transmitter, and a carrier of a divine frequency. Through all of this my work has evolved along with what humanity is ready for step by step. In recent times (the last year) I have been taking individuals on inner journeys that lead them out as far as they can go for their own soul's evolution to understand their own spiritual mission or path at this time. I see the visions for them as I go as they are immersed in the sacred sounds and light language that flows through me. Today, with the realisation that the deep sleep states are me and my twin merging with each other again for the purpose of mission, I knew why.
Awakening to the Cosmic Self
This year I am offering a new way to experiencing and embodying the LUXOR Light Ascension frequencies. This is going to be a journey through the body for healing and all the way through all the subtle bodies until the individual is able to fully experience the fullness of Universal Consciousness just as I do when I travel out to the Cosmic Egg.
This course begins in February and will be held over 6 days online as we work our way to the 8th dimension, the Karmic Record Level and the Level of the Akasha. Later in the next phase we will go to the 14th dimension, then the 20th dimension and then finally to the 24th dimension and into the infinite. This is a very thorough journey of healing and activation at the highest level with the unification of the LUXOR Light system and the Ametron Truth system of Sacred Sound. A powerful journey of the cosmic shaman for those who are ready to experience the higher states of consciousness.